I am walking as a Pagan

As a pagan that walks in the world of religions that never accepted any other forms of belief and considering us as anti to their lord, it is hard for me to say that “I am a pagan”. If I say so, questions will arise such as, “Do you sacrifice humans?”. I am human as well, in fact I could say that this belief has been raised during the times that the Catholic church - through their servants- spreads their gospel and demonised our belief and those who ceased to follow their path has been tortured and burned. Being a pagan for me is being one with God. Of course we do believe in God and all forms of divinity I believe - and others might also blieve that same way- is part of one Deity.

How do I came to this? Well, it is like finding what course you should take or what job you should consider for your own happiness and fulfillment. I can say, I am more fulfilled in my path.

Paganism vs Satanism

Satanism is just an opposite of Christianity and Pagans are not opposing Christianity. I myself believe that Jesus Christ must also be respected. Jesus Christ himself is a master of all magick (I wish some pagans are open to this as well). However, there are certain dogmas that doesn’t work for us. Satanism in other way is completely as I said, against Christianity and Paganism doesn’t work in same way. I can say that Satanism has been created because of the needs to be accepted by their origins which is Christianity but Christians has closed their minds believing that they are the only path that should be followed and denying other beliefs and called it a “cult” so that fear will arise from people and to keep their churches stand and the myth of demonising paganism served them well.

Paganism vs Morality

What is morality? According to http://www.allaboutphilosophy.org/definition-of-morality-faq.htm, morality is the quality of being in accord with standards of right or good conduct or a system of ideas that fall into those same categories.

We often hear words about religious morality or the phrase Christian morality in society. Items that fall into the morally sound category are qualities like good, goodness, rightness, virtue, and righteousness.

When talking about a moral quality involving a course of action, we think of ethics. To define morality, a person will use the rules or habits with regard to right and wrong that he or she follows.

It is a complex system of general principles and particular judgments based on cultural, religious, and philosophical concepts and beliefs. Cultures and or groups regulate and generalize these concepts, thus regulating behavior. When someone conforms to the codification, you consider this person to be moral.

And yet, the notion of how we ought to behave and the reality of how we do behave are varied and real morality behaves in accordance with one's perception of morality. Often, doctrines or moral duties that support the quality of an action which renders it good, is moral.

And so a system of standards used to produce honest, decent, and ethical results are considered moral.

Then, morality is based from social standards and what is moral from one society might be immoral for other society and vice versa. I often hear that I am immoral for being a pagan because I am against what they call “norm” without thinking that paganism is the “nom” during the old days. Then, I can say that morality sometimes are based from ignorance and wrong judgement about certain things. Of course, as a pagan, we also follow some set of beliefs depending on what tradition a pagan belongs to.

Christian God vs. Pagan God

There are two levels to the Wiccan and Pagan understanding of Deity. The first is Personal, the second Universal.

On a personal level we approach Deity as an entity with Which we interact through words and actions and with Whom we maintain a personal relationship. At this level we give Deity many names and faces, and interact with Deity through these. Most Wiccans will use a variety of names and faces for Deity in this personal sense, and will have one particular form which they perceive as their PATRON. They will interact with this Patron Deity, or in some cases Patron Deities, in a very personal way, seeking guidance, inspiration, and practical help in both daily life and esoteric matters.

Some wiccans even chosed Jesus Christ as their patron deity more to say, paganism is really not against your Christian religion it is just that we follow different patterns of worhipping the Divine.

Some things that you should know:

The wiccan rede

This rede stresses that you should not and you must not harm none.

The law of three

Often refer as the law of return wherein in every deed that you do, their would be a consequence and it will return to thee. Or in other words, what you send will come back to you.

The Law of Power

1. The Power shall not be used to bring harm, to injure or to control others. But if the need arises, the Power shall be used to protect your life or the lives of others.
2. The Power is used only as need dictates.

3. The Power can be used for your own gain; as long as by doing so you harm none.

4. It is unwise to accept money for the use of the Power, for it quickly controls its taker. Be not as those of other religions.

5. Use not the Power for prideful gain, for such cheapens the mysteries of Wicca and Magick.

6. Ever remember that the Power is a sacred gift of the Goddess and the God, and should never be misused or abused.

7. And this is the Law of the Power.

The Four Powers of the Magus

The Four Powers of the Magus are the personal attributes traditionally necessary and required for the successful use and practice of magick. These are - To Know, To Dare, To Will, and To Be Silent. Without these four attributes combined, the individual will never be successful in magick.

The reasoning is quite simple; none of the attributes mentioned are enough in themselves, as all four attributes must be present to balance each other out. For instance:

To Know - Knowledge is no good, without the will and audacity to see magick done.

To Dare – Audacity is no good, without the knowledge and will to see magick done.

To Will – Will power is no good, without the knowledge and audacity to see magick done.

To Be Silent – What good are the above, without the discretion to remain silent until the magick is done? To reveal your magick before it is done, dissipates it’s power and effectiveness.

So, anyone aspiring to use magick, he/see needs a knowledge of what he/see is doing, the audacity to use it, the will power to control it, and the discretion to remain silent till the work is done.

Book Craze

I was about to attend a sunday worship service (ano daw?) but before going to the church, I decided to go to Trinoma at sa dami dami ng pwedeng puntahan, napa diretso ako bigla sa powerbooks then I saw a book written by Christopher penzack at ang resulta, di na ako makatulog at i want to buy that book.

I Promise

Sabi di na mauulit,
Pero paulit-ulit.
Di alam kung bakit
Sinasadya mong manakit?

Grabe manhid ka ba?
Ang sakit kaya
Pero nagtitiis
Kahit ikaw ay manhid

Nangakong magbabago
Ilang pangakong napako
Pero mahal pa rin kita
Kahit isa nang tanga

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Txt M8

One message received
At aking binasa
Laman ay nagdulot ng saya
Ngunit saya ay nawala
Na wrong sent ka
Naku, yari na
Pangalan ko ay iba na
Nalulugmok kapag nababasa
Mga mensahe mo para sa iba

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GSM Blue

Unti-unti kang nagbabago
Nawawala na ang pag-ibig mo
Nasa?n ang pangako,
Ng walang hanggang pagsuyo?

Sa bawat tagay
Sa lasang di ako sanay
Umaabot sapagkahilo
Kahit saglit nakalimot ako
Sa pagtataksil mo

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Luha sa Vodka

Sa kulungkutan, tinawag mga kaibigan ko
Upang may karamay ako
Sa sakit ng pagtataksil mo
At sa maaring pagkabigo.
Binuksan ang Vodka
Amoy nito?y nagpasaya
Sa matang maluhaluha
At pusong nangangamba
Binuhos sa baso,
nagdagdag pa ng maraming yelo
Nagsindi ng sigarilyo
At pinausok ito.
Uminom sabay ng pagluha
Tinungga ang Vodka
Sa bawat baso,
Dama ang pagdurusa ko.
Umaasang makalimot sayo

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Labada

Sa bawat pagkuskos ng sabon,
Isipan ay nakatoon
Sa pag-ibig ko na tila iyong tinatapon
Buti pa ang mantas
Sa pagkusot nawawala
Sanapati puso ko ay mailaba
Upang sakit ay mawala

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Cybersex

Di ko maramdaman
Kasi hanggang webcam lang
Pero kung pisikalan.
Akin kayang magugustuhan?
Ika'y mapaglaro gayanila
Maglalaro upang magsaya
Upang sarili mo ay mapaligaya
Sige maglaro ka lang
Puso ko ay makikipagsabayan
Kahit di ko nagugustuhan
Kahit walang nararamdaman

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Teatro

Pag-ibig mo ay di ko na ramdam
Sapagkat sa iba iyong inilalaan
Pero sa laro makikipagsabayan,
Sa larong iyong inumpisahan.
Sige mangulekta ka pa
Para maraming kasali sapelikula
Sa teatrong inihanda,
Sa pagpapanggap, magpakasaya
Kahit mahina na, kunwari kaya ko pa
Sa bawat linyang binibitawan
Sa larong iyong inumpisahan
Kahit ako ay nasasaktan
Ako ay makikipagsabayan

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The Illusion

In deepest dark I lay,
As light fades away
Darkness hovered over me,
Illusion of you and me

Casting away this misery
What I am casting out is me
I thought we would be happy
It?s just an illusion that covered me

All I thought is you and me
But death pulled me
With your infidelity
And the illusion that kills me

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The Sweetest Death

The darkest of the darkest night;
The coldest of the coldest wind
This is my surrounding;
All are renewing

Walk and walk the shattered path.
Walk and walk with scattered heart!
My hands are bind by tight handcuffs
I am bloody but I feel it right.

Deep wounds, deep to the heart
This is all what about.
My eyes are wide open
Still thankful that my thoughts areflowing

I am still free to speak; at least,
I have freedom to sing
The rhyme of the sweetest death
All the tears that I have cried!

All the pains that I have come outwith
All the loneliness I have felt
Bring me to the end
Now has come to an end.

The happiest day is coming I guess
As I sing the sweetest death.
There will be no bondage!
Freedom is coming as I completed tosing
With outstretched hand I am free toembrace
As I sing the sweetest death.

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The Mirage

Closing? my mind is closing?
Believing not in endless dream
Hope that rises
Nothing remains but dusts in thewind
As my thought revolves around itsimagery
A mirage of lucid reality confusing me
A false hope broke my sanity
I still holding to thee
Frail trust, easily broken
Caught my mind on a string
Is it madness? What is it?
A mirage of broken dream
Again I walked the same path
The path of broken dream
Where I cannot sing
Just to write my breaking
How happy it may seem
To hear the sonata of the broken
Standing at the gates of dream
Fallen through the string

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Starless Night

Pale is the light in this starless night,
Wind blows I can't sleep tight.
Darkness devoured this life,
No more tears I have to hold it right.

As my soul dimmed its light
Blurring is my sight,
I don't know if I can make it
To think I can make it right.

This poison seethes my vein,
Darkness above me hovering
I don't really saw light,
In this starless night.

Walking under the starless night,
There is no hand to reach out.
Just liars with deceptions,
Stays in my room

Pale is the light in this starless night,
I am out of sight
Living without light,
Living with this starless night

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Tragic Love

Awakened! With my eyes wide open.
I saw you walking in the dawning morning.
You walk as light as a feather with glowing beauty.
Sweet as fruit, looks like an amber rose.

Your skin is so soft.
Your lips are like a wine;
I am tempted to sip.
Looking at your eyes is just like ecstasy!
Being with you is just like heaven.

Your venomous kiss,
Kills my loneliness!
No more cold night
Inside you warm embrace.

Darkness veiled us the darkness!
Shadows took you away;
I can't help but to cry as I saw you bleed!
And to stare at my lonely sky!

I saw you lying breathless,
Your eyes closed, in the dressed coffin.
Your lips are now rotten.
Should I blame the blade?!

Tragic love endless tears gave me
Tragic love covered me veil of darkness
Tragic love brings me infinite sadness
And left me in the infinite abyss and death.

I am waiting for the time to be with you
Hoping for the time to have you
Thinking for the time of eternal peace
Holding for the time to come
That I may lay down with you
You and I together In your lonely tomb

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Withering

Unthreaded unfolded fears
Revealed what is real
Unveiling the tears
Running with the thing
I thought that was real

As the sun sleep
My heart remains to bleed
As the shadow fall
Death is what I wish

Finding the real
Covering the fear
Wiping the tears
Feeling what they feel
But what they feel isn't real

As my soul grow
Sadness never goes low
Madness is on the flow
Remains with the things that I know

Make me real
Make me feel
Make me real
Let death whisper on my ears

Searching the darkness
Where I feel insane
Searching for the light
But only hate remain

Dig a grave
For me to sleep
Open the coffin
For it is my bed

Let me rise at night
To feel the cold winter
Let me face darkness
To remain untroubled

Let me live
Let me have immortality

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The confusion

In this world, I am wishing,
I am without.
Is this madness?
It is peculiar but it is not.

I cant fly,
For they teared my wings apart,
I can not run,
Because they trapped me in this pain

Have you felt being left in the rain?
Have you felt being crying in pain?
Have you felt you are nothing?
Lo and behold I felt more than that macabre

Bleed myself to kill this pain,
Kill myself to die in the rain.
Let my tears to was my fears,
Vindicated of what I feel.

In this crowd,
I know none.
In this sea of strangers,
I feel drowned.

Damnation is what I feel.
Their numbness I can feel.
In this world, nothing is real,
Illusion that can kill

In this macabre,
I am implied
Chosen to live the solitary life
Lonely life, I have no life

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My Misery

Cold was my soul,
Untold was the pain!
Living in the darkness,
Where only hate remain

Death may the only hope,
But I need to cope
Where might the future may hold.
The misery still untold.

Counting the dreams,
Live not for reality
In the abyss of animosity
Where no one can find me.

I need to pursue
I need to continue
Maybe I am bloody
but I can't undo

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